post Vday

I haven't put in any cute note about Vday but I did wrote a few stuff for my boyfriend. He always makes me think I am lucky and of course loved. This page is nothing about love but rather fragments of my complex mind.

I am a little glad that boredom strikes again. It converts my mind into a idea-generating machine.

I don't always visit this place but everytime I do, I wish to put in a little bit of my complex mind. There are just soooo many things I want to write about but I'm too lazy to get a pen and paper (I can't afford a laptop yet). Hmmm, there's a lot of stuff to get off my mind.

First Thing in the Mind

One thing that's bothering me is the Leyte Tragedy. The mud's covered all of St. Bernard and until now I am hoping that a miracle could still happen. As I sit in the office, I always hope that somebody could be pulled up alive out of the earth. People might think that I am wishfully thinking but I'd rather think of positive things because my heart will sink deeper if I have to remind myself of the people (dead or alive) who are trapped underneath. I remember what a columnist wrote, "For Filipinos, happiness is a tool for survival." We know so well that our country has been plagued by tragedies and disasters so the only affordable thing that could help us going is to be happy. And I think that's what I am trying to do. I know my life is full of S*&# but I don't stop going. I will continue walking even if it rains. If the rain gets harder, I believe stopping for a short while wouldn't hurt. But remember to continue walking after the rain!

Sentimentalism

I think I have been too sentimental for the past few days. I blame it on all the sad news I read in the newspapers and on the internet. But my sentimentalism is considerable. I'd say that because it motivates me to find answers to questions and problems that disturb me once in a while. I guess great thinking comes when we are at extreme emotions. But I have to control myself. I remember my grandpa telling me that sentimentalism is no good. I think he always says that because he gets to spend time with us only very seldom and he doesn't want us to feel lonely or to miss him too much. But he never said that it can be totally eradicated. We all get sentimental sometimes, because we are just humans.

Time

I don't have all the time in the world to write on this page. Time is so precious for me. I used to not care about my time. I remember always being late for school. I pull out the weeds off the ground every morning in grade school because I couldn't make it to the flag ceremony. At least I share the activity with my brother (LOL). And in high school, I was the 2nd to the last person (I'm glad I'm not the worst) who gets up from bed and exit the dormitory. Tsk3. I was soooo punctual, watches and clocks do me no good. Even in college, I was late or even absent if the teacher doesn't care about attendance. But now that I'm working, I can't afford to be always late. If I am, I'm sure my boss would sack me! But I admit getting late a few times. We just can't get rid of thick traffic and sleepless nights (hmmm what could I have been doing?). Well, the older we get the busier we become.

Independence

I believe I have become a very well-rounded person. But I don't want to be called a Jack-of-all-trades. I want to have at least one expertise. Too bad I haven't discovered that skill yet. Independence is my friend. Every since I got my own room, I have become more responsible. And that's a very good thing for me. I began doing my laundry at an early age but I have not perfected the skill. I can wash all my clothes but I could never get my white shirts white or the sheets stain-free. I have never cleaned the tiles in our bathroom back home. But now, I couldn't stand stains on my bathroom floor! I have developed this hobby of spending too much time in the detergents/cleaners section in the supermarket looking for the perfect stain remover. I still got stains in my bathroom but I promised myself I'm going to get rid of them all someday (I wish that day comes, :sigh:). But I still feel incomplete because there is one more thing I need to learn - cooking. I haven't made a decent dish my whole life (except for spaghetti - if you consider that dish). I envy the girl in the Korean TV series "Only You". I wish I can become a good cook just like her (:dreaming:).

I guess I have been typing for almost an hour now so I better stop before this page turns into eternity. This is all for now. I'm glad I have unloaded a little bit of stuff off my mind.